transition

after what happened tonight(techincally yesterday), i'm prepared for the new year. it's true that all he ever did was care but there's a thin line between caring and suffocating. sprinkle in jelousy while your at it. it's not a generalization that ex's can't be friends though. our case was a little different. we ended our relationship by force. i moved on ten times quicker than he did. he was stuck. i understood that. but the madness it lead to was unbearable. althought there were friends here and there to help me out, it really took the point of view of three GUYfriends; a bestfriend, a somewhat of a co-worker and even a stranger to help me realize that excommunication was the right approach. it's not that i couldn't think for myself. it's just that i needed strength and the heart to temporarly end it. somewhat, it was a mistake to settle a date on the turnaround but we'll see where it leads. crossing fingers and hoping for the best. and now i'm standing at a point where i'll use loosely use the phrase; "i'll cross the bridge when i get there". good riddance.

2008 was not bad at all. another year worth of life lesson learned. the second half of the year was the most memorable. you lose friends for a reason and then you gain some. there's always gonna be misunderstandings and times where you feel detached with someone. but knowing that if the person came back and became a stronger friend to you than ever, it must be that there's a purpose why that person is there. don't let it go. they're an exception. they'll teach you things you won't need, things you don't want to know and things that will just help you conquer on what you thought were impossible obsticle. exaggerating ? not at all. this year i've learned from my pastor that family can be defined in so many ways. that it doesn't necessary have to mean your blood related or that you feel a sibling love towards that person.

Forget About Me I Love You.