double take

at first, i took your notice into consideration. that maybe your right, that maybe i DID change. your points of views did matter. AT THAT TIME. but now your just this desperate DUDE who's trying so hard to get in touch with me. even if that means you have to take the approach of invading my privacy. sure enough, the stalker that you are, your reading this and sure enough your asking "what the hell is she talking about?". you know exactly what i'm talking about. you told people. people that might already knew about our relationship slowly disintegrating but you still took it way too far. it doesn't matter how many people you told. just the fact that you told them stuff. you told them about what i did. what i did that wasn't with YOU. what i did with a certain somebody. drunk or not. hooked up with or didnt. you make it sound like I'M the bad guy here. truth be told, I'M NOT. the moment you left, i tried to move on with my life and i feel so damn SORRY for you that you didn't.

it took alot of courage, alot of strength and alot of talking to other people about what i should do with myself in regards to you. after what happened to me blocking you out of my life, i sure hell don't regret it. at first i wanted to take it back. that i took it too hard on you considering it was new years AND almost your birthday. but you went way too far. your not just venting to people. your venting to anyone who would listen. who could possibly feel sorry for you. who doesn't even know MY side of the story. then again, what's there to tell now since you already opened your mouth about everything; the sex, the scandal, the drinking, the future plans you consider bad. i wouldn't be surprise if you told it in a way where it just made look like some slut. and i'm gonna take a wild guess your saying "i didn't mean it like that" or that i'm "assuming". of all people, i didn't expect it from you. your true colors showed. forget about "talking to you again in april". after the stunt you pulled off, i don't think i can even me aquantances with someone like you. your selfish. your in denial. you wanted people to feel sympathy for you. i know someone who does. ME.

i feel sorry that i made that big of an impact in your life. that you can't move on. that you have to say stuff that isn't meant to be said to others just to move your point across. i'm also sorry that both of our friends had to somewhat get stuck in the middle of this but really, who opened their mouths first in a sense where it was just WRONG to. but now, for all i care, keep talking. keep following up on my blogs. keep telling people my shit. becuase the more you do that, the more PITY their gonna get from you. and isn't that what you want ? i'm clearing my name to whoever you told.

i'm don't want anything to do with you anymore. KEEP MY NAME OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MOUTH BECAUSE YOU KNOW DAMN WELL IT'S GONNA BITE YOU IN THE FUCKING ASS WITH WHO YOUR FUCKING MESSING WITH; ME. i've cried my last fucking tears for you. stay out of my life.