"ohhhh the weather outside is WEATHER !"

lets give a laid-back blog without all those deep thoughts;

it took me christmas eve, that long, to finally be into the whole christmas mood. probably 'cause i wasn't expecting my brand new spanking desktop to come til the 29th. but then, i saw this hella fancy wrapped 5x5x5 box with my name on it ! haha i don't know what the hell it is but coming from my dad and it's all wrapped up in fancy like it was professionaly done at the mall, it should be good. he was never the type to wrap his own presents, hah. why he's being soooo generous this year with the shopping, the new computer and letting me out alot, i have nooo freaking idea. ESPECIALLY when his only daughter went home with a hang over the next day from a family party, lmao !

speaking of going out, i should really take it down a notch... or 92830143410. a decent new years resolution perhaps. victor's is right, i have gotten a little loose since then >.<>and that's the problem ! i should really start thinking about my action and what it'll result to even a day or so after. i've given that advice before and it's pathetic how i can't follow through it. it sucks like a total power vacuum on what's been happening the last few weeks or so but i'm determine to change that. I'M READY FOR THE FUCKING NEW YEAR.

aannnndd NO, JOSH ! it's not just about "changing the date on what you write on your paper".. you fucking panda beaaar; lmao jk !
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edit; "ARE YOU GAY?!"

^^HAHA; dude, i'm think i'm done. at least in that specific way we both know about. i guess you can say that 5minute arguement today was a a slap on the face kind of thing. it took a big "just shut the fuck up" to get the realization going. but it's cool, the damage is done. i'm surprise i didn't catch myself yelling and cursing at you. or even worse; breaking dowwwn. i was close -_-; i would've been screwed in the head more than ANYTHING if that occured. no really though, it was triumphantly weird. hopefully it'll last long enough to get me moving. i'm not sorry that i said that one thing 'cause like i said, i call it how i see it. but i AM sorry for hurting you like that. truth be told, you know damn well i didn't mean for it to get huge. your indubitably(lmao) correct about the limit line between the truth and being mean. your mister honest. your blunt. i love it. and i love you ! in a only - the - two - of - us - can - understand - our - relationship - 'cause - you - know - we're - just - fucking - badass - like - that kind of way (: your CALLING and saying that i love you phrase back to me. OHHH ! why yes, i DO know this put a smile on your face.