bittersweet

sometimes i wish we weren't so connected. no regets, really. it's just that it makes me wonder more and more what we could be. i hate this. i really do. i've said the word once or twice. just not as bluntly and effective as i want it to be. i'm in denial ! and i'm dying here wanting to ask him if he feels the same. ahaha. whatever. i have a feeling we'll be stuck in this uncommited situation for a long time. so i should really brace myself and stop being so vulnerable. i'm telling myself 'all or nothing, relationship or friendship, nothing in between and no experimenting around'. easier said than done. well it hasn't been DONE but..well yeah. either way, it plasters a huge smile on both of our faces playfully blaming the other one that it was his/her fault that it wasn't done. whatever dude ! lmao.

moving the fuck on !

WHOO HOO, I'M GETTING A BOMBASS DESKTOP FOR CHRISTMAS (:

i'm gonna go catch some ZzZzZz's !
i'm fucking tired; movies, d.h., and illegal fireworks was the highlight of the day.