i was downstairs doing my APWH notes but then i wanted some tea so i went online upstairs to see if green tea was anygood with soymilk but for some reason, i ended up here instead.

so the first month of 2009; it.wasn't.pretty.
but it definately was worth the pain. the dillema i went through shows how strong i could really get. i mean, that HUGE issue was the icing on the cake but the aftermath to all that was just horrid. i've slacked off school alot, i tend to have more bitch breakdowns, i complained more. but like i said, it made me know what i'm capable of. i can't say i'm fully over it but i'm soo ready to move on. 'rockstar' was pretty accurate; this whole deal was like adam and eve ! haha. the apple was the action, the garden was the friendship and nothing can go back to normal anymore since they broke the golden rule. but yeah, WHATEVER (: i'm ready to put that behind me. i was never the one to hold back due to the past to begin with. i don't really wanna start over, i just wanna pick up where everything was left of. everything meaning how i was doing at school, friendship wise, family related, the whole nine yards. i'm flattered he kept the poster and the fact that ultimate number one lady of his life misses me, haha.

kudos to the people who's put up with my shit (: they know exactly who they are.


FEBRUARY ! yeah shit, idk. i got three piercings on my each of my ear now :D Ooh and whether i had someone to be with or not, i was never a big valentines day freak. appreantly, my parents are going away that weekend so i'm free to do whatever. just pretty bad timing if you ask me, haha. less than one month til my birthday (: i don't want anything drastic. i basically just need $$$. that sounds SO selfish, lol. it's just i wanna get my driving hours done before my license AND use some of the cash for concerts. GO WITH MEEEE !

MARCH 12: lower def ++ i forgot (:
MARCH 25: the maine, 3OH!3 & family force 5.
APRIL 05: brokencyde
APRIL 06: lower def, skylit drive, dance gavin dance.


DID I MENTION I'M IN LOOOVE WITH STEFAN TOLER ?! hottest bass player evaa, ahah.